I have PPMS (Primary Progressive MS) and am now in a Nursing Home. I have been in a wheelchair since 1996 (all the time) The pain is getting intolerable, though at the moment I can still use my hands. I’ve just finished reading the excellent book “Final Exit”. Both my Doctor and the Nursing Home do not approve of assisted suicide.
I am prescribed Amitriptyline and Tramadol in tablet form and fentanyl in patches (in this last the dose has to keep increasing), as well as some other things. My two sons won’t listen if I raise the subject, though neither of them visit very often.
I’ve seen people die with MS and its not a pretty sight, I don’t want that to be me. I want to go whilst I’m still able to control my passing, and do the things I enjoy, reading, computer, DVDs etc. I’m also a member of MENSA and enjoy puzzles and similar past-times. I don’t want my brain to go, that would be the worst thing.
I already have a living will with DNR instructions and the nursing home and the doctor both have a copy. I hoped I would be able to find nembutal and/or seconal over the Internet but so far have been unlucky. Is there any other way that could be recommended? I don’t want anyone to get into trouble through helping me, but I really do need some help.
I think everyone connected with this movement are doing wonderful work,
Regards,
Anne Veasey,
Harrogate, North Yorkshire. United Kingdom
(From “World right-to-die news list”)
